11.25.14 Dear Joe, It's been 2,346 days since we last talked. And did you notice the number pattern? 23 is half of 46 or twice 23 is 46. I don't particularly remember Monday, November 25, 2014. I don't separately remember each of the days that I have missed talking with you. What I do remember are the days with patterns. Anniversaries, birthdays, weddings, some travel … [Read more...] about Brain Patterns
Sunday
Edited11.24.14 So I got the dates mixed up. Maybe I was trying hard for November 22nd to never have happened. These are the correct dates: Friday November 21, 2014Saturday November 22, 2014Sunday November 23, 2014 Here's what I remember about Sunday, November 23, 2014 Paul and Andrew went with me to your old job to make arrangements. Who would have … [Read more...] about Sunday
Since We Last Talked
(edited) 11.22.1411.23.14 Dear Joe, It's been 2,345 days since we last talked. I know that we texted Friday night, November 21, 2014, but I really don't remember when I spoke to you or even when I saw you before that day. I remember what happened when I woke up on Saturday, the 22nd. 11.22.14 is the before and after fault line of my life. The line I can't seem to … [Read more...] about Since We Last Talked
My Year of Magical Thinking
I revere writers and writing. Joan Didion. Aaron Sorkin. Joseph Conrad. I am trying to conjure a memory and with it a timeline. I was teaching, so it was before 2014. I would listen to NPR on the 35-minute drive to and from work. used to listen There was a tsunami in Japan. I looked it up. The "Japan Earthquake and Tsunami" happened on March 11, 2011. In the newsreel playing … [Read more...] about My Year of Magical Thinking
No Words
I have no words. Or too many words crowding to get out all together and all at once. So I have to take a step back and think about the individual words and how they connect together to put forth ideas. I am watching The West Wing. Again. Since signing in to HBO Max, I am on my third or fourth pass at the show. I watch The West Wing because I desperately miss Joe. I miss not … [Read more...] about No Words